At the age of 18 I went to university to complete a three year Law Degree. I chose law because I enjoyed studying it at A level (a entry qualification) and I had dreams of being a lawyer.
I found a university I liked, I applied and I got in. I really liked the university experience. I moved away from home for the first time. I learnt to cook and do my own washing. I made friends which I would never have come in contact with if I hadn’t gone. I met people from all over the UK and Europe. It was a great experience.
But. Although I enjoyed my course in the first year of study, the second year was dreadful. I realised that with my anxiety condition I cannot be a lawyer. I cannot be in the courtroom in front of a judge. With everybody staring at me, listening to my every word. I had panic attacks during practical assessments. I just could not do it.
As a result of this realisation, I tried to change courses. But, as I was in the second year of study, I was unable to. I was forced to finish the degree. I worked extremely hard and finished with a First Degree (I was good at the written parts).
Following university I found it difficult to obtain a job. Eventually, a year later, I found a job in a solicitor’s firm. Where I realised that I do not want to work in the legal field whatsoever. I was treated quite badly. I was talked down to, I was constantly criticised for things that I could not control or were outside of my job role, and the atmosphere could be quite intimidating. This confirmed that I do not want to pursue any legal career.
I then went through a massive phase of being confused, hurt, lost and upset. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I had dedicated my education to the subject which I excelled at, but I did not want anything to do with it.
After a while of contemplation, I came to the conclusion that I wanted to do something creative. I want to do something I really enjoy and can do alone if necessary. I want some sort of writing involved, an emphasis on my organisational skills, and some sort of link to the media sector. I want to take photographs and design things.
I have now found the perfect match to my wishlist. I am now pursuing a career in PR and Events Management. I have been accepted onto a postgraduate programme, starting September. I have arranged for extra online courses and I am going to be applying for volunteer roles.
I will keep you up-to-date on my progress. I know going from law to PR is a big change. I also know that a lot of people dream of a legal career, but I am just not suited to it. I would rather accept that and make the change now so that I can enjoy my working life. It’s going to be a difficult journey, but it will get me to where I want to be. No more hating my job. No more being miserable. I am going to follow a career path that I am actually passionate about regardless of the financial prospects!