Bad Things Happen

So… last night, I was in a car accident involving a motorcyclist. Luckily, he was not injured! And so was I! It was all damage to the vehicles, and not that severe.Yet, my car is a write-off and my wages haven’t started yet as we missed the deadline of this month’s payroll. I need a…

Job Interview

I had a job interview recently for a role in a Supermarket. I did exactly as advised by careers advisers. I researched the company, I prepared answers to common questions, I arrived promptly, and dressed suitably. I was even asked specific questions I was prepared for. Yet, I did not get the job. Although it…

Living with an Alcoholic

I have grown up with an alcoholic father. My childhood was troubled by a man who has no emotional control. I was called fat, ugly and stupid at the age of 10. Every dream I had was crushed with negativity. I would get screamed at for existing. He would say I was an obstacle between…

The Shame of Borrowing

I am pretty sure that most people have been in a situation where you have had to borrow money. I am currently in that predicament. I have had to borrow money off my brother because I am not getting any income until September. Oh… it is shameful. I was stressing, not knowing what I was…

Missing the Busy Lifestyle

I used to be run off my feet all the time. All I wanted was to have a break, have time to catch up on some TV shows or read a book. Now, all I have is free time. I hate it. Most of my day is spent trying to think of things to do…

Being Somebody I Am Proud Of

I have struggled for quite a few years with feelings of shame and regret. I have made a lot of mistakes over the years. The guilt I have felt over those mistakes has held me back so much. I became afraid of enjoying myself, of saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong thing, or feeling…

Is There Such Thing as Normal?

Sometimes I sit here and think ‘I just want to be normal’. I want the normal life with a normal relationship and a normal family. Seconds later I realise that they don’t exist. The idea of having a ‘normal’ life is simply from those perfect families on television. Those families that have an issue, work…

A Lot Changes Over 5 Years

I met up with an old friend from school the other day. The last time I had properly spoken to him was just over 5 years ago. Then, suddenly, we bumped into each other and arranged to meet for a drink. It was really nice actually. After moving away and coming back, I have lost…

Moving To Be With Somebody

I live in a very rural area. I’m talking about somewhere which has one bus an hour until 5pm. The nearest town is 18 miles away, but because of the country roads, it takes 20 minutes to get there. I’m not particularly fond of where I live. I lived in a city when I went…

Making Friends & Losing Them

At the moment, I would say that I only have 2 friends. I literally only speak to 2 people other than my family.  Don’t get me wrong, I have had plenty of friends in the past. I’ve always found it quite easy to make friends, especially since I moved around a lot as a child….

The Importance of Manners

So. I was casually washing my car, when 2 kids started shouting out of the window across the street. They were calling me a ‘fat idiot’. Personally, I think they meant ‘voluptuous’ but just couldn’t pronounce it. Anyways, I knocked on the house and told their mum what they were doing. She apologised and I…

Apologies

Apologies can be easy, but they can also be extremely difficult. Firstly, for a meaningful apology you have to accept that you were wrong. For some people this feels like the end of the world. For example, my dad will not do this because he is scared of feeling powerless. Others are just in a…