A Lot Changes Over 5 Years

I met up with an old friend from school the other day. The last time I had properly spoken to him was just over 5 years ago. Then, suddenly, we bumped into each other and arranged to meet for a drink. It was really nice actually. After moving away and coming back, I have lost…

Moving To Be With Somebody

I live in a very rural area. I’m talking about somewhere which has one bus an hour until 5pm. The nearest town is 18 miles away, but because of the country roads, it takes 20 minutes to get there. I’m not particularly fond of where I live. I lived in a city when I went…

Making Friends & Losing Them

At the moment, I would say that I only have 2 friends. I literally only speak to 2 people other than my family.  Don’t get me wrong, I have had plenty of friends in the past. I’ve always found it quite easy to make friends, especially since I moved around a lot as a child….

The Importance of Manners

So. I was casually washing my car, when 2 kids started shouting out of the window across the street. They were calling me a ‘fat idiot’. Personally, I think they meant ‘voluptuous’ but just couldn’t pronounce it. Anyways, I knocked on the house and told their mum what they were doing. She apologised and I…

Apologies

Apologies can be easy, but they can also be extremely difficult. Firstly, for a meaningful apology you have to accept that you were wrong. For some people this feels like the end of the world. For example, my dad will not do this because he is scared of feeling powerless. Others are just in a…

Being Happy Within Myself.

Something I have learnt over the last few months is that I have always been scared of being alone. I have always had low self esteem, but I never realised the effect it has had on me as a person. I have come to realisation that I am so insecure that I become needy. I…

To Break Up or Not To Break Up?

If you have read any of my previous posts, you will know that me and my partner are in a long-term but now long-distance relationship. We have been going long distance for over a year now. Because of this, I am scared that I have started to lose feelings for him. We have had our…

Dating Somebody with Depression

As you can guess by the title, my partner has depression. I have been dating him for over 3 years and it has never been easy. He was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. During our relationship his depression became so severe that he became addicted to ‘spice’ and became a zombie. He lied to…

Is Life Ever Right?

I have a theory. My theory goes like this: There is always something going wrong in your life at any one moment. Whenever I sort out the problems I am having, I think that my life is back on track. Then, something else goes wrong. Recently, I secured a year of work experience in the…

Controlling People

I have always known that my father is a controlling person. But what I didn’t realise is that there seems to be a pattern in our family tree. I have recently come into some very heated discussions with some of my family members. This has made me analyse my family members like never before. My…

Family Feuds – When is it Time to Walk Away?

My uncle has always been the troublemaker in the family. If there is a drama, you can guarentee it will have something to do with him. However, the other day, he went out of his way to annoy me. He did things and said things just to anger me. He was goading me until I…

When Friends Become Irritating.

I decided to buy a puppy two weeks ago. I was SO excited.  My friend had bought a dog over a year ago and had a spare cage. So, I asked if I could borrow it for my soon-to-be-puppy.  She asked if she can go with me to pick up the puppy. I had no…